Sometimes, I wish I could be the person who didn’t “give a shit” about anyone else. No one but myself.

Maybe then I wouldn’t be so stressed and worried and concerned with trying to make everyone else happy. I wouldn’t make people vent and get it all out of their system so they felt better. I wouldn’t offer my shoulder for people to cry on. I wouldn’t have all of the weight and pressure of their problems on my shoulders. I wouldn’t stress about trying to come up with reasons to why things are going the way they are in their lives or try to figure out what to do to help or fix their problems. I wouldn’t be worried about if they’re going to do something stupid and hurt themselves.

I also wouldn’t wonder why people are such assholes sometimes when I’m nothing but nice to them. I wouldn’t wonder why people have to take out their frustrations on me when I did nothing but ask a simple question or do as I was told. Because I would be doing the exact same thing to them that they did to me.

Sometimes, I feel like just caring about myself would be a whole heck of a lot better.

But then..
all of the people I’ve helped, been kind to, listened to.. their faces pop up in my mind. And I start to wonder, had I not been there to help, had I not been there to listen, what would have happened?

And that’s what makes me keep “giving a shit” about other people.

• 1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?I’m not confused.
• 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?All the time. <3
• 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?I would care a lot. I wouldn’t want him to.
• 4: Do you find it easy to trust others?For the most part, I trust people until they give me a reason not to. Unless it’s with something I deeply care about. 
• 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? Watching movies with my mom and brother.
• 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?Considering I wouldn’t be drunk, lost, and walking down the road. no one.
• 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?Ihave been cheated on. Numerous times. I was hurt, ended the relationship, and moved on. There’s nothing else you can do.
• 8: Are you close with your dad?Yes.
• 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?Sure did. :)
• 10: What are you listening to?Damn it, Janet - Rocky Horror Picture Show
• 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?Probably something healthy. But then again, it’s me so probably Mt. Dew.
• 12. Do you like hickeys?No.
• 13: What time do you go to bed?Lately, it’s been around 6am.
• 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?Nope.
• 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?Yeah, for the most part.
• 16: Do you always answer your texts?If I have time to. 
• 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?That would be Jeramey, so no.
• 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?Today.
• 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?Jeramey.
• 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?I’m not sure. Probably something along the lines that it was lucky I was still up to wake my brother up for school. 
• 21: Is anyone else in the room with you?My dogs.
• 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?Yes.
• 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?I’m happier every day.
• 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?Not really. I’ve tried to fix things with everyone I’ve had problems with.
• 25: In the past week, have you cried? Over a book.
• 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?Purple.
• 27: Do people ever call you by your last name?Never.
• 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?It certainly feels that way.
• 29: Do you have a best friend?Of course.
• 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?Most definitely. I’m not sure if I’d crumble or become extremely pissed. Probably a combination of both.
• 31: Who was your last call from? I have no idea. Some strange number called this morning but I didn’t answer, lol.
• 32: Are you mad at anyone?Not really.
• 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?Yes, but not by much. Maybe a few months at most.
• 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?20.
• 35: How many more days until your birthday?It’s not until Nov. 10th, I’d rather not do the math.
• 36: Do you have any summer plans yet?Work.
• 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?Yes.
• 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?No.
• 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?Nope.
• 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?Mmhmm. 
• 41: Do you think age matters in relationships?Well, that depends. People are at different stages of their lives so I think it’d be better if people were around the same age. Or at least in the same stage of their lives.
• 42: Are you available?Nope.
• 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?One.
• 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?I don’t really want any piercings. Besides my ears, that I have pierced. 
• 45: Do you believe exes can be friends?That’s debatable. 
• 46: Do you regret anything?Yes.
• 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?I should go to bed.
• 48: Did you ever lose a best friend?Kind of.
• 49: Was your last kiss a mistake?No.
• 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? I already have him<3
• 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?Yes.
• 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?Yes.
• 53: What was the last thing you ate?Hot Fudge Sundae pop tarts.
• 54: Did you get any compliments today?Nope… Actually! Yeah! One of our regular customers, she always gets her breadsticks in boxes. 4 orders, 6 cheeses. She loves the skinny sticks so I put all of those in her box and she said I did a good job, haha.
• 55: Where are you going on your next vacation?I have no idea.
• 56: Do you own anything from other countries?I’m sure I do but don’t realize it. 
• 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?Mm. Used to be guys. Probably still is.
• 58: Where have you lived most of your life?Muncie, Indiana.
• 59: When was the last time you took a long drive?I’m not sure.
• 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?No.
• 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?Nope.
• 62: Who do you text the most?Jeramey.
• 63: What was the last movie you saw?Lethal Dose? or something. My mom was watching it. It’s from 2003, lol.
• 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?The fact he doesn’t see her that way anymore. 
• 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010?One.
• 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?Yes.
• 67: Do you curse around your parents?My mom.
• 68: Are you happy with where you live?Yes.
• 69: Do you collect anything?Not really anymore.
• 70: What’s your favourite colour?Blue.
• 71: Does the last song you listened to remind you of anyone?Not really.
• 72: Has anyone ever cheated on you?Yes. Multiple people.
• 73: What are your plans for tomorrow?Work.
• 74: Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one?I only have one sibling and he’s 16. 
• 75: Does your last ex have a job?Yes.
• 76: What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship?Be happy for him? 
• 77: Where is your cellphone?Beside me.
• 78: What colour is your cellphone?Black and gray. 
• 79: What did you dream of last night?I don’t remember. 
• 80: Are you atheist?No.
• 81: Will you change your name when you get married?Mmhmm.
• 82: Are you ready for autumn weather?Yessss<3
• 83: Have you had any big storms recently?Not that I was awake for.
• 84: What kind of bottoms are you wearing?Basketball shorts.

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